FOREVER YOUNG

"...forever young... we wanna be forever young..."
know that song? no? too bad.

everyone wants to be forever young. never gets old and living each day with no worries.

little do they know, being forever young is not entirely good.

i have an autism sister. she got this dislexia and i think her doctor said that there's something wrong with her cromosome (i dont know what that is).
all i know is that she has more cromosome than we, normal people have.
this abnormalities make learning and acting normal hard for her. she doesnt grow up like any other girl.

so my sister is mentally forever young.

she cant do certain things by herself. someone has to help her (with a lot of patience) to do something. especially things related to school lessons. she goes to special school, and cant be treated based on her age.

she is 14 this year but she acts like an 8 years old girl. my parents used to blame themself for her abnormality. but then they realized that she is not a mistake, not a burden. she is a miracle.

even though she has this messy moods (just like mine multiplied by two), oftenly gets tantrum if she eats too much sugar, and will forever be a young girl, as her family we never once ashamed or burdened for having her.

she is difficult, she tests our patience everyday, she gets angry easily, she is my sister! the only sister i have.

i often sad because people dont understand her situation. she likes to play with little kids. but she is kind of big, taller than me, so people usually afraid of letting their kids playing with her. they are afraid she'll abuse them or something.

i always wanna scream into their earlobes
" my sister is harmless! she is special and she only wants to make friends!"

i wanna pull out their hair and slap them!!!

she can only grow old but not grow up. that is not her fault. she will forever be a young girl.

now, do you still wanna be forever young? 

Bragging

few days ago, my friend told me that he is handling one big project. so I asked him what was that.
he said : " i'm handling a 20 million rupiahs worth project. great, isn't it? I mean, I am only 21 and my boss lets me handle this HUGE project."

uh-huh. brag much?

well maybe because that was his first multi million rupiahs project. so I went all smooth on him. I answered with exactly what he expected: " OMG that is super cool! congrats, man. you must be busy now. why don't you stop calling me and start to work on that? you might wont handle any projects aside of this if you mess this one up."

oooh... what a good friend am I? <----- also bragging

and yet, he answered me with the most annoying answer I could think of.
he said: " look, I know you are smart. why don't you go back to college and getting a degree so you can get a job like me and handle your own multi million worth project? I think its a shame that you dropped your chance of getting A BETTER LIFE like that. any DEGREE-LESS PEOPLE wont get this kind of job, less, getting trusted enough for this kind of project. "

so my life is not good enough, according to him.

Man, you know what? I hate to brag back but he really got me on my nerves.

so I told him the truth:
"dude, i'm sorry but I gotta tell you this. I had my very first project at the age of 17. I made my own catering company, sent proposals, joined the tender bid, made the contract, managed the project, and successfully fulfilled the contract, all by myself and my employees. and that was a 210 millions rupiahs worth project. you can ask my parents if you don't believe me. or should I show you the contract? I have 10 employees and I didn't brag to you at all. or underestimated you for being an undergraduate that time. moreover judged you, unlike you who has just judged me wrongly. I might look young, well I am young. but what you are bragging to me now, I've done it years ago. I am 4 steps ahead of you, and will always be if you keep on being a small minded, oblivious kind of guy."

he was quite for a moment and said : " you don't have to BRAG about it, bitch." and he hung up the phone.

mmmm....?

I felt bad, really. I didn't mean to do that but I was pretty offended. and I got a nasty temper so.... it was just sort of happened.

that is why I hate it when people ask me about:
1. my job
2. why I am no longer going to college
3. my age

because it turns out that those 3 things mixed, trigger stupid conclusions:

Hiira is an oblivious, liar, delusional, unexperienced, poor little girl.

am I?

Bashing, Comment War, and Freaky Fans

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I commented at a video of a contestant of Indonesian Idol 2014, and was accused for bashing that guy. his fans were went all mad at me and that actually made my comment being the top comment hahahahahahaha.

really, guys. I did that out of fun. I just wanted to say something (bad) to random people.
but his fans are so funny, though! really. some of their comments are way too serious for something I did plain for fun.
I don't even watch the show, for God's sake. hahahahahahahaha.

this is what Frosty Jack replied to me:
"and what is so 'keren' about your comments? no reason (bashing people is unreasonable), no prove (if he's bad he would not be in the spectacular), no quality (asking somebody to kick him out of stage) and if i ask you if you can perform like him, the answer is a big NO."

hahahahahahah, Jack, don't go all preachy on me.

but honestly, this kind of reply is what I am looking for. lets have a comment war!!!

watch the video here: Ubay Indonesian Idol 2014

see the comments too lol

Sarcasm, witty comments, and my favorite books.

hi?

okay this is awkward. been a year and 2 months though.
got no time, sorry.

can I start? okay? thanks.

the last time I wrote, I was following my friend's advice for NOT BEING TOO SARCASTIC. that worked for like.... 2 freaking days. I know, people were nicer for two days. i mean, who wouldn't be nice with a girl who wears silly smiles all the time? but people are also nice to those smiling autism kids, right?
and THAT WAS STUPID.

so I keep on going with my sarcasm and that actually helps me sane.
yeah, I got excessive sarcasm here in my tummy. I am fat of sarcasm. gotta get rid of it.


know what? someone wrote on twitter that  sarcastic people tends to be smarter than other people.

hell yeah. I knew it! lol I mean you cant be dumb if you wanna turn back people's comments with style and wit. right?

I loooove sarcasm to the core, I unconsciously picked books that is full of witty comments from the characters.  hahahahahaha okay I totally love vampire academy.

oh whatever, I'm writing this out of randomness. so bye.